Even The Daylight Appeared Dark: A Journey Through Life, The Military, Depression And Post Traumatic Stress Disorder Paperback - 2011

From the publisher

"Can you hear me? Wake up, how many tablets have you taken." I opened one eye, I was in my own bed, my head was spinning mainly due to the day's drinking session, but it may also have had something to do with the 60 500mg paracetamol tablets I had taken. I thought they were meant to cure headaches. There were three other people in the room, two paramedics and one work friend, he had called in the cavalry. I lay there not wanting to answer, I wanted them to leave, to let me die. I was tired, I was 30 years old and for 20 years I'd had to fight through life. Following a suicide attempt Matthew had to find answers to what made him get to the point of utter despair, he found some of them, and it gave him enough strength to continue, until his next tour of duty, Helmand, Afghanistan. On returning home his dreams were a constant reminder of his time away, his dreams were soon to spill over into daytime and everyday things started to remind him of events in Afghanistan. A new battle had begun this time he had a medical label, he was suffering with "Post Traumatic Stress Disorder" the unseen illness. An illness of which he describes the emotional anguish and pain of suffering and hopes to give some light and hope to those who maybe suffering similar feelings. A percentage of profits from the sale of this book will be donated to Talking2Minds the charity which helped me find my answers. "This is a very honest book. Most people have only peeped through cracks in the front door, but Matthew invites us in to the house and lets us explore most of the rooms. His experiences are extraordinary and he displays enormous courage in exposing his feelings and sufferings to us." - Melanie Waters LLB MBA, Chief Executive, The Royal British Legion Poppy Factory